Thanks Hopeful!! What you say is very true. And even though we have not considered a LSD trip before, its becoming more of a possibility! We are still in the process of waiting for our house to be sold. OH says whether we go or not the house stays on sale, cause if things get progressively worse here we have the money to get on a plane and leave here. That gives us time too, to rent and save some money as that is much cheaper than paying a bond (as you all will know

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So yes i've now made peace that evertying about immigration will not be "nice" and will certainly not "feel" nice. The list thing works like that....there are enought reasons to stay and enough to go. It boils down on what we want to do.
I think in the end we will end up in NZ. I just dont think I was prepared for the whole emotional "flare up" as i'm not prone to drama, and like to keep my cool. I've enough ppl in my family that will fill in the "drama" part for me....
LOL my stepmom says she's going to punction the airoplanes wheels lol lol it was all said in good humor though...shame...they really love the kids, and i'm so sad for taking this away from them and from the kids.
I think the part that "upsets" me the most is the fact that I feel forced to leave because of the situation in our country, and I think most of you (not you jaffa...we know you dont like SA) can relate to that feeling.
On the other hand I've always wanted to go and live in another country for the exitement and experience of it all.
I'm just so glad, that because of all your replies I know know I'm not loosing it, but are very norml in what i'm going through and feeling regarding all of this.
So i'm taking heart that im not alone...
